This time and this moment

At this time, this moment, telling how i feel, smiling on the outside, broken on the inside. Days had gone, and i had what i want. Could not be even more happy, lots of pain and regrets that i have to go for. I never wanted this to happen, but with its lil' presence it made so much differences. I'm somewhere likely confuse. Only two options that is left, no other way, beby that's all is left. Either i leave or evacuate. I want this beautiful deary of mine to go on and see the beauty of the world. But it's too impossible. If i keep it, I have to leave him, that's not an option that he would like.
Two months now. What is left, i don't have much choice. This is not an option that i would go for even I have to.
I'm sorry deary, but I had to!
I LOVE YOU